Self-Control

I used to have more self-control than I have now.  My will power is pretty weak.  It's almost embarrassing.  Anyway, I've gotten into some pretty poor habits... Thirstbusters from Circle K - (every day)... I know, I know.  It's bad.  I eat chocolate.  Lots of chocolate.  You know what else?  I didn't even LIKE chocolate until after I had my first baby!  Why oh why did I ever decide to like chocolate?  I was better off without it!  And cakes, breads, cookies?  Don't even get me started!

My good friend is a registered nurse and I was telling her how tired I am all the time.  I even went to the doctor and had all the blood work done... the whole nine yards.  I was sure it was going to come back with some horrible diagnosis... umm... no.  I'm as healthy as a horse!  How can that be?  I feel like garbage, but every single thing they tested came back not only normal, but almost perfect!  I was hoping they would come back and say... "You have this.  And this is how we fix it."  I know, I know.  I really am grateful to be healthy.  I just wish I wasn't so darn tired all the time!

So - back to my friend, the nurse.  She was telling my I need to cut down on the sugars and breads because, of course, they are the bad carbs.  I did know that.  But she also told me that I should increase the amount of protein I eat so that I can stay full longer and that the protein would give me the good energy compared to the bad carbs giving me the bad, short energy.

So, I've taken her advice.  I'm making small steps of progress each day and it seems like I am beginning to feel a little better.  I've been trying to eat more fresh fruits and vegetables... I bought a bag of baby spinach and have been trying to eat some of it every day.  I also bought a good trail mix that I keep on my desk at work.  I have found that if I eat just a small handful in the mid morning when my sugar attack hits, I don't want the sugar as much and I can actually make it later until I want to eat lunch.

But today was the best of all... I didn't drink ANY soda today.  Not a single drop!   Whoo hoo for me!  I haven't gone a day without soda in probably 8 months or so.  I am very proud of myself.  I have a murderous headache tonight, but I'm trying to ignore it.  That's why I'm telling everyone on my blog all of my deep, dark, terrible eating habits!

So maybe my will power will get a teensie bit stronger and maybe I'll eat a teensie bit better tomorrow... I did break down and eat two of the little Halloween Milk Duds - you know the ones... the little boxes that have 4 Milk Duds in them?  Yeah... two of those.  But hey!  That's pretty darn good for me!

That's another reason I'm trying so hard.  Last year?  I gained ten pounds from Thanksgiving to New Years... and I STILL have it!  I'll be really sad if I gain ten more.  I feel like Thomas the Train... I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...  I'm hoping after a few more days I can say... I know I can, I know I can, I know I can!  How about you?  Is there something you wish you could have a bit stronger will power for?