Over and over, I continue to ask myself why I write on the internet. Why do I keep blogging? I go through phases where spill my guts and don't care who knows it. Other times I'm in the phase where I feel over-exposed and want to throw in the towel and say that it doesn't matter anyway. But I have found my voice in this blog world. I have discovered more about myself and found that I love writing. There is something very therapeutic about writing down the thoughts of one's mind.
I'm not very artistic. I'm not good at decorating. I'm not into fashion. I'm not a great cook. But I love to learn and I love to share what I have learned. I found that I love to teach and that I love writing. Those two go hand in hand like soulmates.
I find that I want to express myself in broader and broader ways that I never considered before. Honestly, I never thought of writing as a big deal, but that is changing. I find that I NEED to write. I wish I could attach a digital recorder to my mind so that I could just think it and it would be written for me. I am never able to type fast enough to get it all down and sometimes lose the thoughts I want to record the most. It can be a little frustrating. I wish I could remember my dreams. They are grand films. I just can't seem to remember them after I'm fully conscious.
When I chose The Amateur Writer as the title for this blog I meant it in the simplest term "amateur" possible. I'm as amateur as they get. Sometimes I see that people search for "amateur writing" or "how to be an amateur writer" on internet searches and that leads them to this blog and then I feel bad. I'm not an expert in writing. I don't know how to get published or how to write a book. I just write... because I love it. That's all. I hope this blog will give me the practice and confidence to write a book someday, but I will get there when I get there. If you found my blog hoping for advice and tips on how to become a writer, I am sorry. I cannot help you there. But if you love to write, start a blog and write what you feel, what you think, what you love. That's what I do. It's a good place to start.